Thursday 16 January 2014

Before I was a Mom...


Morifeoluwa

Was going through my mail today when I stumbled upon an email my elder sister had sent to me on Monday (I'm still wondering how I missed it). Needless to say the contents of the mail completely melted my heart. 

It was a poem for mothers and the body of her email said, "Enjoy being a mum. Fulfilment unlimited. Regards." I immediately knew I had to share it and proceeded to the internet to find the author and give credit to whom credit is due. Alas, most sites that had the poem had the author listed as anonymous except for one which said that in April 2011, Suzana Haertzen of Flagstaff, Arizona claimed to be the author of the poem, which she wrote in March 2000. Suzana, if you are indeed the author of the poem, I doff my hat to you, otherwise, I doff my same hat to the author :). 

I have copied out the poem and its attendant pictures from the site www.gabrielscorner.com and dedicate it to my daughter who is 4 months and 18 days old today. This poem captures the very essence of the emotions I feel, the thoughts I think and the actions I do without blinking. I love you my precious, always...


Mom


BEFORE I WAS A MOM
Before I was a Mom;
I made and ate hot meals,
I had unstained clothing,
I brushed my hair every day,
I had quiet conversations on the phone,
I slept as late as I wanted and I slept all night long.

Before I was a Mom;
I cleaned my house each day,
I never tripped over toys or forgot lullabies,
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous,
I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, peed on, or
pinched by tiny fingers.
Before I was a Mom;
I never thought about immunizations,
I never held a screaming child so the doctors could give shots,
I never looked into teary eyes and cried,
I never felt my heart break into pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt,
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.


Before I was a Mom;
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down,
I never sat up late hours of the night watching a baby sleep,
I never got up in the middle of the night to make sure everything was okay,
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.


Before I was a Mom;
I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts and my body,
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside of my body,
I didn't know that having something so small could make me feel so
important,
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache,
the wonderment, or the satisfaction of being a mom.
Before I was a Mom;
I never knew that something so small could effect my life so much,
I never knew that I could love someone so much,
I never knew I would love being a Mom,
I didn't know the bond between a Mother and her child,
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much.

'A mother is she who can take the place of all others, but whose place no one else can take' - Cardinal Mermillod

'Love has a name...Mother' - Suzane Johnson

#versefortheyear - Blessed is she who believed, for there will be a fulfillment of those things which were told her from the Lord - Luke 1:45

Thursday 9 January 2014

Blogging from within...


shot with my iPhone

Was nursing Mo' baby while watching The Mentalist this afternoon and in one of the scenes, Patrick Jane was talking to a lady in a floral detail cardigan and all I could think of was, 'that is a really lovely cardigan, I love it!' From there I proceeded to take a picture of the tv (while still nursing!) and search online for floral detail (or floral print) cardigans and then the thought struck me! Blog about it! 

Of course I paused to ask myself how rational the idea was knowing that my blog is specifically, deliberately for makeup which is what I love to do. But then as with all things born of the Spirit, the honest truth must be told. I had opened this blog account to promote my makeup, showcase my talent in a bid to attract followers and thus gain clients, but I haven't done much blogging (considering how long I've had the blog) due to the fact that I got a great job in an investment bank (I'm an investment banker by profession) and that didn't leave me much time to do anything else. Coming to think about it, 'great' is relative...a job can only be great if the job is your passion, if when you're working you feel like you're on top of the world, like you're capable of moving mountains, like you're living on purpose and in purpose...I quit the job in December 2013 to do makeup fulltime :)

Being bitterly honest with myself, today I made the decision to ditch the notion of wanting to attract customers with my makeup pictures which could do with some improvement and blog to give my creativity an outlet. I would blog from within, on anything that moved me from the inside, from my heart and my spirit and my mind and I would have a blast while doing it. Just typing this brings me joy, I'm happy, I'm being deliberate with my life and the resources available to me. I love writing so I will write (type actually) and pour myself out onto the internet. Following your dreams is the pathway to having a great, rich and wonderful life and I intend to have just that. Every dream I've had for myself, my marriage, my family, my home, my career, I will follow and follow hard and like I said earlier, I will indeed, blog from within.

"the future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams" - Eleanor Roosevelt

Always, 

 

Olusola

P.S. Mo' baby is my 4 month old daughter (her full name is Morifeoluwa which means I see the love of God)

Luke 1:45 #versefortheyear